I haven't been here for ages, which seems to be what generally happens these days or I come here and I write, then whatever was going on in my head feels clear so I do not bother to post it. Everything is okay at the moment, it is mostly good but I guess, as with anything there are always difficulties. Mainly arguments about the ex-wife which really should not occur but I am sure it will get easier, I hope so anyway. I don't think it's the fact that she's his ex-wife, I know that she's not a threat, it's something else which I can't write about.

Neil and I are very different, we have completely different personalities and I think this is the reason we get on so well plus he makes me happy. He probably deserves a medal for putting up with me anyway! :)) I don't think the difference in our ages makes any difference, in fact I think I like the fact that he's older as I get to be younger and I'd let him look after me instead of feeling like I had to be the one who made sure things were okay. I think that's basically how I have felt in other relationships, even though J was older than me, I felt like I was his mother at times and he was more responsibility than I needed at 18 but it's okay because I was happy to look after him and make sure he was okay. I guess I do tend to mother people but with Neil, I don't have to because he is more mature than I am and that makes a nice change. I think we are there for each other in equal amounts and that is definitely a positive thing within our relationship.

It is late and I should go to bed so I will see you in a month! :))